- (no subject)
- February 24th, 2010
so, for a few moments at work, i turned my distress into eustress and i felt... normal. something in me relaxed. it was pleasant... but it takes concentration. i started helping people again and it disappeared. but i know its there, just a little switch for me to hold up and breathe, i can see, i can hear everything more, everything is more vibrant. i AM. then its gone. but its ok that its gone, because it is gone. i dont care because i cant feel. have i been depressed this whole time and am just now coming out of it? or am i getting endorphins from the high amount of stress at work and school? i dont know...